life is one giant scar that stains your skin and rips tears down your back oozing your past trough the deepness of the line. medicine doesn't cure your past..how do I learn to except it

Guys I'm sorry that I have not been on in quite a while but it's been a crazy two weeks.  I told a friend that I thought I could trust who I liked..well the news got out to the entire class and now it's been quite awkward. My neighbor who was very close to me passed away due to cancer. I've been in some state of depression because this is the second person that I love pass away from cancer. I was tripped in gym yesterday playing my new favorite sport, floor hockey. I went skidding across the floor and now it hurts to walk..my whole body aches in exhaustion from al my stress..you never know what you have until it's gone. I always say that you should learn from your past and appreciate what you have...I'm dont listen to myself very well....